Once upon a time, there lived a small, lonely little girl who thought the world of home, but was terrified to go to school every day. She wanted to make a difference, but she was far too shy to do so. Teachers misunderstood her shyness as a disability and confirmed that it must be a learning disability. Every day she went to this school, being emotionally, verbally, and even sometimes physically abused by special education teachers. It took her until age 24 to completely forgive them for hurting, harming, and betraying her.
Folks, I was that little girl.
Now, I use my past to define me, not confine me. Some people come into your life, wanting to use you to their utmost desires. Those people are not good for you, though. Do not let them break you. Personally, I struggled for years in fighting hard against their opinions of me. It actually wasn’t until I met my husband that I was gradually able to move past all that hurt and betrayal that everyone had ever taunted against me in my entire life, and that’s a lot of people!
I’ve had struggles lately and am dealing with a struggle now. But I’m not letting it confine me! I’m letting it define me by leading me to be a better person, better human being, better Christian, better wife, daughter, sister, daughter-in-law, and friend. These same teachers told me that I would never be a writer, that I would never succeed in a lot of things in life because of some disability they thought I had. I guarantee you, I never had such a thing. I’m not perfect, by any means, nobody is, but we all make mistakes. We all try our hardest to make things right and when it still doesn’t turn out right, we feel like we get shamed, dishonored, ridiculed, betrayed, and forsaken by it and perhaps even by God.
But God will never abandon us! This struggle that I’m currently dealing with seems never-ending. There sometimes seems like there is no way out, no escape to brighter and better tomorrows. But all I need to do is pray to God, read the Word (Bible), and talk to some of my closest people in my life: my husband, parents, sisters, in-laws, and friends. I know that I have done nothing wrong and I know that I am working my hardest. I know that my dreams will come true, with every fiber in my being, and that God will open up beautiful opportunities to me in His own good timing. Right now it seems hard and a constant struggle……
But one day soon it WILL end! And I’ll be a better and happier person, and a better, happier, and more beautiful-feeling person that I ever thought I ever would be EVER!!!!!!! Those who have hurt me I will forgive and turn my back upon the past forever. There will be a much, much better and happier life for this situation soon. I just need to not give up! I must have complete confidence on God first and foremost, then myself, and also be encouraged. I have a huge support system behind me, which also includes all of YOU!!!!!!!!! I am so, so grateful for that. I have a wonderful, beautiful life and am such a person waiting for that wonderful, beautiful opportunity. I know I can handle anything that comes my way! Those who have lost confidence in me are now in the past and no longer matter. But those who are my constant encouragement, love, and support, I will cling to.
God had made each and every one of us a wonderful human being! Are you going through a struggle too? Believe that today! God will make a way when there seems to be no way. God will never abandon us, and He is smiling up in heaven right now, because that wonderful gift of burden-lifting bliss is soon on its awesome way! 🙂
Enjoy your life, everyone, no matter what happens inside it. Hold tight to those blessings in your life that truly matter most of all. Have a wonderful life, hold your head up high, and don’t give up! 🙂 You can overcome your once – once upon a time – past if I can 🙂
Have a good week 🙂